advice is what a mother gives

hey momma,

Due to many curious questions, I have been told I act, and look older. It appeared to me that the only reason I act like an adult, is because I had to grow up.

 I had to learn to adapt with whatever I thought girls did, or do. I had to learn to use a tampon by myself, I had to learn to keep some things to myself, I had to learn to go shopping by myself sometimes, I had to learn to deal with my problems on my own, I had to learn how to dress properly, I had to learn how to do my own eyebrows - dad wont let me get them waxed, I had to learn to be independent, I had to learn to apply makeup, I had to learn to tutor myself, I had to learn to cook for myself when dad is working late, I had to learn how to cope with death, and more importantly, I had to learn how to not have a mother. 

This isn't pity, I just have no clue on what to even do with myself, because I am clueless on what to next. I need my influence, you, momma.