momma, momma

I have been wondering what life would have been life if you were here. I have come across several conclusions.
one: I wouldn't have to rely on dad for anything, for example: school shopping, money, to drive me places, to take interest in my grades, or lies/dislikes, or to plan things accordingly.
two: I could speak freely about my issues, or problems.
three: I would have more experience on what it is like to be a girl.
four: I would grow up, satisfied, and loving my life.
five: I wouldn't be so depressed about not having anything that a mother provides.
six: I would just be like ever other girl, and have their mother bring them to the mall, or take them on a shopping trip just cuz.
seven: I wouldn't have a worry about my friends not staying over because there is only a man in the house.
eight: This household would be organized, and on schedule.
nine: My house would not be this crazed do whatever, be whatever.
ten: I would not be writing this stupid ass blog.